the_disappearing_librarian

Yes, stress makes me a slacker.  I was doing so great about my fitness and healthier lifestyle.  For three months it was amazing.  Then all the stress of seeing my marriage facade crack and crumble, and making the decision to separate from my husband, has lifted me up and placed me back down into my old habits and lifestyle. Well, the biggest hurdle is realizing that is what happened.  Now to change it.  I think once I get settled in next weekend, I will be able to quickly get back on the right track.  Its hard to find time to workout if you are trying to pack and get things moved out of the old place on a timeline.  I have to have everything out and the apartment cleaned no later than the 31st.  That way they will release us from our lease. I have to say that even through all of the stress I have continued to lose weight.  I am down a total of 30 pounds since 2/9/17.  My goal is 50 by the end of June.  I know I can do it. ...

Yes. You read the title of the blog post correctly, I am leaving my husband after almost ten years of marriage and being together almost eleven years.  We both have some issues we need to deal with, but I have been unhappy and trying to tell him about my feelings for almost five years now.  I can no longer live in the life I have been living. Hiding my fear, frustration, sadness, and anger at how I have become withdrawn, so no one would notice anything was wrong.  I was wrong in assuming that no one noticed anything different.  Everyone has noticed that  I have become a different person. I am no longer the happy go lucky, full of life, able to make friends, person that I was when I met my husband.  Systematically, I have been more and more isolated from my family and friends.  I have chipped away pieces of myself so much to fit the mold that I was expected to fit, that I had gotten to the point that I no longer recognized myself. This is my decisio...